Losing trust ... lost it altogether.
Gone to the either extreme but my own self outshines the grotesque experienced and weathered reflex of my brain every now and then.
And then it hurts. Inside me I still feel like trusting everyone who approaches me with a smile. My brain almost beats me up to a coma when I try doing that. I don't trust them, if I tell them, it'll come to them as a blow and I can't be so cruel.
Used to being cruel just to myself
my own self...